How Do I

Allow myself joy
When joy has lifted

All bills are paid
When the ship lifts

And Dora is no more
For she is ephemeral
Immortal
Only in memory

And I have seen the terminus
And the orbit is apogee
Off into the stars
And gone

What is there now?
Am I stardust
ephemeral
And gone

Lord lift me 
For I have lost my way
I believe
Help my unbelief